Hey, look at this, less than 3 months has passed between postings. Yay me. Of course, even with the bandages off its still difficult to type. Good thing wordpress provides a spell checker.
Shortly after my last post my wife drove me to the dojang to see everyone. She thought I needed it, but was worried about how it would affect me. At first it was awesome. Getting a chance to joke about it with my other family, getting words of support and wishes for speedy recovery. But then the classes started and Ms M was alone on the floor. There was only one turtle so the first half hour wasn’t so bad. There was a rather large group of tigers though, and she was still alone out there, and I couldn’t help. One, I was still coming down from the Oxy. Second… well I covered that in the last post. Only 45 minutes had passed before I was overwhelmed and left with my tail between my legs.
I was supposed to start class again the following Monday, but in a cruel twist of luck my wife was injured at her job. Of course she was half way across the state and I had no way to get out to her. Funny, I lost a finger and mangled two others and I was already back at work. Her job isn’t allowing her to come back on light duty. She’s out for two months while her finger heals.
So my triumphant return was delayed 25 hours.
Tuesday night I go in late for me but not teaching it was on the early side for class. I had given up on tying my belt (wasn’t working with the hand all bandaged up). Before class I’m sitting around talking to Ms M and a few of the parents and feeling sorry for myself. In my mind I was wasting my time. I couldn’t really do anything. Couldn’t jump or bounce around without the hand screaming at me. Certainly couldn’t do push ups or self defences. Weapons were almost completely out of the question, especially when bo is the weapon of the cycle. Ms. M rolled her eyes at me and hit me with a barrage of questions.. “can you kick? can you do your forms? can you…can you…can you?” And of course the answer to all of them was yes. 60 minutes later I’m sweating, tired, and feeling better than I had since the accident.
Wednesday night… wasn’t nearly as bad as I feared. It was still unnerving as hell, but I made it through. For those of you who still haven’t seen yet, here are the pics of the unveiling…
The most traumatic part was the surgeon removing the bandages. Some of the stitches had worked their way through the bandages and then got gunked up so it all stuck together. Hurt more than I was prepared for.
Thursday night I started to back slide a bit emotionally. It was a stripe test night and I didn’t want to deal with it. Part of me felt that the only reason I would get the stripe was a pity pass. Once the test started though I hit the mute button on that voice and gave what I could. I left feeling like I had earned the pass and all was good in the world.
The weekend was… uneventful and amazing at the same time. In order to avoid confusion I’m going to phrase this in a way that makes it easy to understand, yet makes me uncomfortable. My son’s half-brother reached out to me. I suppose I could explain a little. See, I never used “step-son” in regards to him. For the better part of two years he was my son. Now, I haven’t seen or heard from him in almost 20 years. He’s got a son of his own now, seems really adjusted. Can’t really say yet where this is going, but the talks have been good.
Last night’s classes were fun and painful. Too cramped on the floor. Too close to one of the dans. Our hands went out at the same time and he connected with my injured hand. Stars, hurk, a little dizzy… gonna sit for a few minutes, k? Also made the mistake of trying to handle a bo. Got through the first three moves of the form and then got the bo jammed under the splints. Stars, hurk, a little dizzy… That pissed me off. A lot. Like, losing it angry. Not that I let anyone see it. But still.
I know. Too much too soon. I should be taking it easy. I just want my hand back. What’s left of it anyway.
Tang Soo!